Had a little surprise tonight. The view was lovely, with a whisper I haven't heard for what seemed like ages.

Bittersweet emotions.
Why do I think the way I think?
I don't understand... I really don't.
I don't even know what I am thinking or why I'm thinking like that.
Get me a mind analyzer.
What am I?
Who will understand me? How difficult it is to tackle such a complicated mind, with such inate fear.
The past and the present me do not reconcile.
Please do not let the past me screw up everything there is now. One screwed up person is bad enough. Will I make it two?

Feeling helpless.

Thank you for tonight despite yourself.
Thank you for your love despite yourself.

Agape.