Awake

Sleeping is good... slept like at 10 plus last night and automatically woke up now. Damn.. need to go and bathe but I'm afraid that there are creepy crawlies lurking in the dark corners of the bathing cubicle... they like to come out late at night don't they?

Sleeping does me good. Time not to think or feel... just do. Self-esteem already plummeted so just screw that. I hate it when you have this aching feeling inside you... this depressed feeling that makes you wanna puke but you can't really do anything about it because if you try to get rid of it, you'll not be able to study. Argh I REALLY HATE THIS! I hate it when I feel that I cannot make it or that I'm not good enough. Damn, time to become a robot.