I know I'm not given things that I cannot handle... but I feel that I'm drowning... the darkness and despair is overshadowing my littler glimmer of hope. I've no more energy to fight it anymore. =( I'm feeling really demoralised now. I know I must hope... and I must trust Him that things will be okay... but my heart doesn't seem to buy it at this moment in time. I feel really terrible... just let me hang on for ONE MORE DAY and I can crash after that.