May I not lose focus in doing what I am doing and why I am doing them.
Am I not loving enough?
So many questions of self doubt, reality checks that it hurts.
Grant me the strength and understanding O Lord.

Thank You for maturing me O Lord.
Please guide me.
Keep me away from the evil One.

Back home.

1. Hoping and praying that you and your family will be fine. You're using your other phone which doesn't have free incoming calls from overseas. I wish I could contact you... Oh no, I did not try actually dialing the other number... only smsing. shoot. I'll try again when I wake up.

2. To fail feels horrible. To keep on failing feels suicidal. You are a testimony of bravery and courage, a real inspiration to me.

Oh Lord, people around me are feeling blue. =(

Loads on my mind.

My mind just won't let me go to bed.

Would you still acknowledge me when I see you walking down the street?
Do you still regard me as your friend?
Acceptance I must learn.


I have a weak heart.
Who would cradle it for me?
The remedy to my instability is obvious
And yet it is not the action that is taken?
Is the action due to the lack of understanding?
Or is it done on purpose as a lesson to learn?

Steady Mich, steady.

Music entry.

Had a good laugh last night.
Bro's my mood-increaser, changes my mood from down to up.
I love him to bits!
The look on his face was so incredulous when I was ranting my heart out because I couldn't keep it inside of me. It's silly but I am silly. He taught me how to wear a beanie.

Calm my palpitating heart.
Be strong and smile because you'll be all right.
I'll be all right.
Be strong to curb the longing that threatens to spill out and show the real inside.
Courage Mich, Courage! =)
(hmm, that sounds like some quote from the movie Master and Command)

Found some really cool music stuff lately...
1. Audacity software - a multi-layering software!!!! SUPER COOL! (thanks neph!)
2. Finale notepad 2006 - note-writing, playback, can even add the lyrics! :)
3. My VERY OWN chromatic pitch pipe! Oh man... I've been wanting this for ages.
4. A small theory book (grade 1-5). To Mark and Jo, hahah I can help you guys out in theory once I erm.. brush up on it? =) As I have promised. Let me know after June 16 ya?

Yesterday's MM session was great. We were like talking and milling. Justin and Ivan even composed a song and let us hear. How cool is that? They have talent man. :) And they (the MM people) are really understanding about things. For example, me going overseas at this crucial point. Spirits are up.. they're determined to make things work. I am truly grateful. Thank God.

Bro was talking to me about setting up a band... oh man! Imagine playing somewhere as big as Balaclava. I'm honoured but I think they should find someone more proficient in keyboard. My keyboarding skills suck, not good enough for pubs and such. Hmm... drummers anyone?

Agape.

Will be going to Melbourne tomorrow. till the 26th May.

Feeling heavy-hearted.
I need to smile.
Please find the strength to smile Mich!
Don't let your effort go to waste Mich.

Be strong, it's okay, you can handle the things at hand.
Don't freak out!
I wish... :]

I thank MM for being so forgiving. You rock guys!

Agape.

Although the results were the same as 5 years ago, I must say the results were exciting to watch!! :)

It's like in a coffee shop. heeheehee.

I've something to say about the elections and such.. but I've to go for mass... hahah and I'm still in my pjs. >.<

Anyhows, about shirking responsibilities, why don't I feel a big sense of guilt like I would used to? *shrugs* Perhaps I'm more in control and I know that I should be joyful as He knows that I am sincere although I may fall at times or perhaps I have accepted these flaws exist and all I can do now is to keep trying to reach the ideal. For that I am sorry. I will try my best! I will really try... Please grant me strength, time, a sound mind and happy heart.

Good girl meets bad boy.
Surprises abound...
Just drives one to sheer madness!
Let's meet at the golden mean.

The number four.
Let's go for more! ;)

Agape.

One more before I go off to bed!

The Five Love Languages

My primary love languages are probably
Acts of Service and Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Acts of Service:		9
Quality Time:		9
Physical Touch:		5
Words of Affirmation:		5
Receiving Gifts:		2

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Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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Speak!

Mich, learn to speak your mind.
Overcome your own fear!
Purge it even though the easy way out is just so tempting
before it eats you up from within.

For the easy way out
causes cracks in the foundation
Which house can stand on a foundation made of sand?
The tide will come and sweep it away.
But a house built on solid rock will stand.

Guide me.

It's ALL Over! :)

Finally exams are over.

Had a crappy paper yesterday... ST2131. YUCKS man. I really salute Maths majors - they are so so so so so smart... and so resilient.. I mean, how can you survive coming out of exams not finishing paper after paper? I'll never get used to that feeling. I've learnt my lesson. NO MORE MATHS FOR ME!

Yesterday was an unwinding day. Went (window) shopping with the fool. Got shot like a million times during CS. Ugh. At least I'm getting better hey! However I felt the crappy headache coming back so I had to go back.

Heard some sad news yesterday night. I wish I didn't have to worry about it but I do and if that person goes... I don't think I'll ever be prepared for the day. However my reaction now is so different from 2 years ago. This time I am grateful to Him for the extra time I can spend with that person. That person is a living miracle, my teacher, my inspiration of true faith and strength. What more can I ask for? I just hope that the person will be able to see unfulfilled dreams fulfilled through me. It is sad that it takes an illness to truely cherish the ones I have. I grateful for this lesson. I pray with all my heart for the strength to love with all my heart and to do my best.

Bro's music rocks man. Love it to bits. He's so sick now. =(

Yay I'm so free today that I'm still in my PJs. hahaha. I'm a damn slacker lah.

JJ: When's sushi lunch gonna be huh?

Agape.

Ending of a semester.

The semester's ending... with ONE more paper tmr!!
ARGH I'm so not ready for tmr's paper.

WHAT a semester it has been. I don't know where to begin.

Today's dad's birthday... can't wait to get back to eat some popiah. *grin*

3pm 2nd May faster come.

There's a fool hanging out in the YIH study room. The fool is the only soul hanging out there who is not mugging. >.<

I hope everyone is well.

Agape.