The night goes on.

It is in the silence of the night where the heart can lose its inhibitions and cry out to Him, in total honesty of all that is weighing it down.

I need You.

A little braveheart I try to be, to learn to smile from within, to learn to be strong.

It is through prayer and reflection that the heart realises so many things to be thankful for. This realisation is truly a source of comfort which fuels the strength to continue hoping and a reason to smile.

Please keep me close to You.

I find it hard to start on my work. I know I have to but all I want to do is to sleep my day away. Sigh. I need to make my mind focus somehow and not wander.

Anyways, I'm glad it's mid-sem break. :) Hmm, maybe I should sleep for a while.

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(4.35pm)

Oh no.. I slept for 2 hours and I still feel like sleeping!! Surfing the net is not helping to keep me awake. I need to try... :\ Now all I want to do is look out of my window, watch the leaves of the tree sway in the evening breeze and let my mind wander. Perhaps I should change my music - this is too melancholy for me.

Ok done. Hopefully this new playlist works.

Take care everyone.

These past few weeks have been tough for me with personal struggles to deal with. After going through this week with one mid term and trying to refocus back on school work, I'm superlatively exhausted. I really couldn't bring myself to go for dinner, as much as I would have loved to, after MM session tonight. However I'm glad I attended Science CG yesterday, stayed back for dinner with Dwi and the ABEngs yesterday and attended MM session today despite feeling really drained. There is a little smile in my heart because I could give gladly. Thank you Lord.

I would like to thank my friends who have been concerned over my recent moodiness. Thank you for bearing with me and I hope I didn't worry you all too much. I am all right now. My mood is getting better! :) I hope I can be there for you guys as you have been here for me.

May His strength be yours.

I'm grateful.

woohoo!

I'm in luck. =)

My 9am class has been shifted to 3pm in the afternoon tmr! yesyesyesyes! 1 more precious hour of sleep.

I'm grateful for the 10 min wait before my 10am class.

I'm grateful for the =Þ drawn on my lecture notes as a happy distraction to keep me awake.

I'm grateful for the timely encouraging sms just when I was alone trudging along to the comp lab to finish my assignment.

I'm grateful for the unplanned company and chat to city hall mrt.

I'm grateful for the tea I had after I got home.

I'm grateful for the pink and blue tulips I received and it was timely because I broke mine own tulip.

I shall rest for the long night to come.

Psalm 31 (responsorial psalm)

Save me O Lord, in Your Love.


In you, O Lord, I take refuge.
Let me never be put to shame.
In your justice, set me free,
hear me and speedily rescue me.

Be a rock of refuge for me,
a mighty stronghold to save me,
For you are my rock, my stronghold,
For your name’s sake, lead me and guide me.

Release me from the snares they have hidden
For you are my refuge, Lord.
Into your hands I commend my spirit.
It is you who will redeem me, Lord.

As for me, I trust in you, Lord,
I say: 'You are my God.
My life is in your hands, deliver me
from the hands of those who hate me.'

How great is the goodness, Lord,
that you keep for those who fear you,
that you show to those who trust you

Dear Lord,

I am not strong enough to handle this on my own.
You say that you will not give people things too big that they cannot handle - but this is too much for me.

Please, stop these thoughts. They have already served their purpose.

Sleeping my day away.

When you are depressed and praying doesn't seem to make your heart feel better, I suggest you just hit the sack and sleep it all away. When you wake up, everything feels better. And you can go back to praying.

I hypothesize that you feel 100x more depressed when you lack sleep than when you are fresh. Someone should go and conduct an experiment on the levels of serotonin produced.

Today I was feeling uber crappy from thinking too much. So I kinda slept my day away. In the evening I went for a short car ride with my parents to my dad's office holiday bungalow at pasir ris park area. Visiting that place brought back much memories of fun. The sneaking out to 7-11, the walks at the beach, the nintendo games, the sleepovers... but darn, the table tennis table is GONE! Anyhow it was a lovely car ride. I brought my Jack Johnson's CD to listen. Looking out of the window with the rain pouring and no valuables on me (no hp, no wallet, no keys), I felt safe from the world, with nothing to worry about for a while. I was glad.

No fear Mich, no fear, just faith.

Music Ministry

It's finally done. The new committee has been formed.
I'm really so glad.

I had extra help yesterday in leading my session on lifting up your burdens for MM discernment - more than extra help... he became my co-leader, the inspiration of the passage we had picked to share. Thank you. On friday I was quite in a bad state as my head was spinning and I had not tied up the loose ends yet for the session the next day. And thank Him for working wonders when I was only surviving on 2 hours of sleep... During my sharing, I almost broke down. Luckily I managed to maintain my composure heh. Anyhow, those things are in the past and I look forward to a wonderful year ahead! :)

Agape.

Finally a smile creeping back.

Finding the strength to let go of the load.

"May His strength be yours"

May His strength be mine.

Actions speak louder than words sometimes.

8th.

:)