"Thank you for the conversation!" <3

Over the span of 12 hours I had 3 great conversations. =)

It started off at 12.40am with Dwi over the phone.
The next one was with Cindy who stayed over in my room.
It ended off today at 12.40pm with Dwi over the phone.

I heart you. <3

A song dedication.

As I rest against this cold hard wall
Oh will you pass me by
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry
I had fought so hard
and thought that all my battles had been won
only to find the war has just begun

Is He not strong enough
Is He not pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
Is He not brave enough
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again

Will my weaknes for an hour
Make me suffer for a lifetime
Is there any way to be made whole again
If I'm healed, renewed and find forgiveness
Find the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plan

Is He not strong enoughIs He not pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
Is He not brave enough
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again

He took my life into His Hands
And turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance
It's there I finally found

But You were strong enough
But You were pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
But You were brave enough
To take one chance on me
Oh Thank You for me chance to start again

Strong Enough - Stacie Orrico

I don't know where to begin!

I am staying in school. I thank my parents for that. I really love home... I just wished NUS were nearer to it. Home does have its distractions too. >.<

Being in this little room gives me time to reflect on things. So much has been happening that I don't know where to begin!

Dwi's birthday was on the 18th of Jan. A friend of mine asked me what I got for him. I replied "nothing". My excuse was I already got him a gift for our first year anniversary. I guess I didn't intend to get him a gift because what he (and I) really needed then was time. Just being physically present for him when he had much to do. We had a dinner after and we talked. It really hasn't been smooth-sailing for the both of us over the past year but we have indeed grown. 1 year has passed, a new year, a new beginning. May we embrace the gift of Love.

18th Jan was the also the night Jac helped me experience something which I had never done before - to witness an arrival of her favourite star at the airport! :) It was good fun and a good experience. Something which I only see on TV I get to experience real-life! You thanked me for my company and accommodation, I thank you for your time and you.

Shucks, I just lost my blogging streak. I should get back to work. XP

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A call from my parents made me smile. I miss them so! Can't wait for friday to come to have dinner with them.

Take care everyone!

Agape.

Oh man.. so tired.

I really don't wanna go to school.

:(

An Email.

I just read an email from a dear friend Annette.

I am touched.

I remember sharing a lot of things with you through words, actions, and writing an email as well... and you remembered so many things and even cared to share with me... You didn't have to - but you did and I am overwhelmed. In your blog, you wrote about God's intervention in your life - thank you for being His instrument to me.

with much love.

Walks

Went for a walk with Dwi last night around Bugis area. A short walk I think, a relatively short one... maybe for 3/4 of an hour? Walked past this huge DHL balloon... I think that balloon can fly and take passengers for a ride. Seriously. There was a slogan "You can fly!" or something like that. Reminded me of Superman wannabes. Then there was a commotion with a group of policemen questioning some people near the shopping mall. We decided to walk past to try to listen to what they were saying... hahah. Had some weird thought in our minds that if we suddenly ran... would the police give chase? *grin* so close to ending up in prison last night.

MORE WALKS PLEASE!

Anyhows, Bleach is getting interesting - 110 makes me wanna watch 111... damn I hate it when things end halfway - Cliffhanger episode. Hope I wasn't a spoiler though.. :P

Feeling pretty all right. Didn't know this blogger can use such pretty colours!! Woww...

Things are kinda looking up in my head I guess... although there are still things to be reconciled, I am thankful that there have been other things that have been moving forward. It is truly amazing how love changes things. More reason to smile. :)

A new year, a clean slate. Just one more issue to reconcile and I will be free from the darkness of my soul.

Thank You for the gifts of faith and hope.
They burn in my heart. <3

Dreams

Dreams... do they have any meaning at all?

Why on earth do we have dreams? Does God put dreams into our minds when we are asleep for a reason? Or do dreams show what you truly desire? Dreams unsettle me, especially when things I don't think about come into my dreams. Anyhow, I'm relieved that sometimes dreams stay as dreams and not progress into the real world.

Okay, time to break fast. *grin*

Dear Jeki.. I really miss you.

When things are not so nice at home or outside, I can always come home for a hug... but now you're so far away. =((

Calling you just now... I cannot hold back my tears man. But I am really really glad you're doing great. May life be wonderful for you.

Lessons from the fundamentals of life.

Feeling a little lousy today and yesterday and the day before... the time of the month I guess? =P

Now that I am home, I feel like turning on the A/C and snooze but then my mind is so busy that I cannot rest. My cousin Shaun was saying that we should invent an "energy" remover so that can we would be able to sleep when we need to.

I feel the need to compartmentalize my life - like cells. You know, there are different compartments called organelles like the nucleus, mitochondrion, peroxisome, endoplasmic reticulum and so on. Different reactions are contained in their own specific organelles, so their effects will not influence the environment in other parts of the cell. Likewise with my life, things that happen in one relationship should not affect other relationships. Damn, I want to be a cell.

Okay. The day is still young. Make the best of the rest of the day.

Shit.

I really don't feel like going to school.

Feel like sleeping somemore although I had 7 hours of sleep the night before.

zzz.